Friday, February 23, 2007

I think I've got a case of the blahs. ugh.

I'm frustrated. and angry. and sad.
And a million other things.
I don't know, maybe it's because I'm so pregnant, maybe it's just the stress of all the decisions I have to make or the stress of not being able to find a job because I'm so pregnant, or perhaps it's the stress of not having anything done or ready for the baby other than putting up the wallpaper, which I actually haven't finished yet. I have one wall left to do.
Or maybe it's just because I'm so pregnant and still not mentally prepared to deal with it.
I barely have time to get used to the idea before he gets here. There's only about 9 weeks left until my due date.

The last few days I've just been sitting at home, doing nothing, usually lying in bed, sleeping, or just laying there. The television is on but really I'm not watching it. I don't know what to do with myself.It's not even that there is nothing to do or nobody to see. People call all the time to see if I'd like to hang out or meet up at the coffeeshop or whatnot and it seems like a terrific idea up until the time when we're actually going to go. Then I have no motivation to go or to see anyone.

It's gotten to the point where the only time I leave the house is when I have a doctors appointment or when I go to the grocery store with my mom, because she thinks that I need to get out of the house.She's probably right, but meh.As much as I know I'll love him when he gets here, and as much as I do already, this just wasn't what I had planned for my life right now, and it's just plain frustrating. I have to change everything, and I still have no clue what I'm going to do in the next few months, or the next year.


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